My Courage

In life you always have to have courage if not your nothing. In my life I’ve had many times I have had to be strong and have courage. For many teens and myself is hard to talk to your parents. My parents have always told me that they are will always be there for me whenever I need them. I was raised a way that many kids aren’t. My parents have lots of trust for me and my siblings and if we lose that trust we lose everything.

Recently I have been thinking about dropping out of school because my life isn’t that easy. It’s so hard to stay on task for so long and just focus when you have a million things running through your head. Last year I went to AIMS@UNM and it was difficulty, so I fell behind in credits. For falling behind in credits I had to go to night school this whole school year so I was caught up. I go Mondays and Wednesdays from 5:45pm to 9:30pm.

The first semester was fine and I didn’t really complain. This semester it was just hard since the beginning. I get so frustrated when I start failing one class. I work so hard most of the year that I can’t believe I stop carrying till now. I was just getting so frustrated and mad that I just stop trying. I just didn’t care anymore. It was so hard not to care because I would think about it when I got home and I look back at all the years I busted my ass to get here and quit. I would cry because I miss being so motivated.

From losing that motivation I had to find a way to get courage to tell my parents. I thought about it for awhile. One night my dad and I were sitting in one of the living rooms and I just let my feelings out. I told my dad that I just didn’t want to be in school that I just didn’t try anymore. When I told him I thought that he was going to get mad at me but no, he didn’t. My dad just told me that he wasn’t going to force me to be is at place I don’t want to be because it wouldn’t make a difference. When he told me that I got the goose bumps because I know how much it means to him that I get my education.

Just yesterday my life, thoughts and feelings changed. Yesterday when I got home from school.